求翻译：xiexin 刚离开这儿，我又开始想他了。我不敢写信告诉他，他会说我“做作”。所以我盼望他快点有个孩子，我他孩子带到中国抚养，他就会理解我现在的心情了。是什么意思？

xiexin just left here, I began to think him. I can not write to tell him, he will say that I "artificial." So I hope he quickly had a child, I support his children to China, he will understand my present mood.

xiexin just after he had left here, I also began to think about him. I do not dare to write to him, he would say that I am "done". Therefore, I hope that he had a child, I was quickly brought to China child rearing, he will be able to understand my feeling.

xiexin just left here, I started to think him.I do not dare to write a letter tell him, him can say me “artificially”.Therefore I hoped he a bit faster has a child, fosters my his child innertube to China, he could understand me now the mood.

Xiexin just left here, I began to think he has. I couldn't write and tell him, he would say that I "affectation". So I hope he soon had a child, I took his children to China raise, he would understand my current mood.

Xiexin just left here, I began to think he has. I couldn't write and tell him, he would say that I "affectation". So I hope he soon had a child, I took his children to China raise, he would understand my current mood.