求翻译：难道我真的拥有不到我想要的东西吗？是不是我太不现实，还是这个世界太残酷。有时候自己静下来的时候我觉得自己什么也没有拥有过，我好惭愧啊！是什么意思？

Do I really have not to do what I want? I too unrealistic, or that the world is too cruel. Sometimes their mind when ever I feel that I have nothing, I'm so ashamed Ah!