求翻译：因为爱着你如此担心、害怕你会离我而去，这次你回家看你的家人既然你不会给我发邮件也没有一个电话，我真的让自己太下贱了，如此卑微的去讨好你究竟是为了什么？我的心真的死了。我曾经很爱你非常的爱你，可是请你别拿我的爱来伤害我。我渴望你爱我而不是当你要我的时候只是床上功夫，我希望是生活上的关心和体贴、爱护小小的这么个我，我的这个要求过分吗？我已经不渴望从你那得到什么，因为从来都没有过，我再也不用自己骗自己你是爱我的。是什么意思？

Because loving you so worried, afraid you will go, you go home and see your family this time since you will not send an e-mail or a phone call to me, I really was so cheap, so humble to please you are for what? My heart really is dead. I used to love you very very much love you, but please don't take my love to hurt me. I long for your love I instead of effort when you want me to just the bed, I hope that is caring and considerate and caring little for life such an I, I did this request too? I have no desire for what you get from, because never, I no longer have to own couln't you is to love me.