求翻译：仔细的想到底自己是怎么了，是什么原因让我现在如此的不想在家。其实原因很简单，是因为Hussien，是他给了我希望，是他让我爱上了和他在一起的生活。所以我现在才会那么不甘心，不情愿呆在家里过这样的生活。是什么意思？

Careful thought of themselves at the end is what's up, what is the reason I now don't feel like at home. In fact, the reason is simple, because Hussien, he gave me hope, I fell in love with and he made in his life. So now I will not be reconciled, reluctant to stay at home and live this life.