求翻译：一直有着一个梦想，可以静静地在床上躺着，忘记身边的一切，在键盘上敲出自己心底那些肮脏而可怕的语言，让心安静片刻。可是如此简单的梦想却也离我越来越远，不管是怎么样的生活，还是充满着许多看似很不平淡的迹象，每个人都不知道下一刻将发生什么。原本以为有一条很清晰的路，如今看清了，但是却是反方向的，带着失望义无反顾地往回走。是什么意思？

Has always had a dream that can quietly lying in bed, forget everything around, knocked out himself on the keyboard language of the heart to those dirty and terrible, was quiet for a moment by heart. However such a simple dream is farther away from me, no matter what kind of life, is also filled with the signs of many seemingly quite dull, everyone does not know what happens next minute. Thought has a very clear way, now see, but it is in the opposite direction, with disappointed to throw back.