求翻译：我不喜欢说话却每天说最多的话，我不喜欢笑却总笑个不停，身边的每个人都说我的生活好快乐，于是我也就认为自己真的快乐。可是为什么我会在一大群朋友中突然地就沉默，为什么在人群中看到个相似的背影就难过，看见秋天树木疯狂地掉叶子我就忘记了说话，看见天色渐晚路上暖黄色的灯火就忘记了自己原来的方向是什么意思？

I don't like but said most words every day, I don't like the smile was always laughing, everyone around me say that my life is so happy, so I feel really happy. But why am I in a large group of friends suddenly, silence, why in the crowd to see a similar back sad seen wildly off the leaves of the trees in autumn I forget words, saw warm yellow lights were on the road it grew late forgot their former direction