求翻译：但是，从感情上说，这简直就是对我这一年来对他鼎力相助的亵渎。这让我犯难了：现在该怎么办？是什么意思？

However, emotionally said: to me it's the year to Put your shoulder to the wheel of his profanity. This has made me consider sth difficult: what do I do now?