求翻译：前方好像是黑暗的没有尽头的隧道 永远走不到尽头，于是只能摸索着跌跌撞撞继续前行，不知道目的地在哪！也挣扎过，幻想在蓝天白云下随时阳光普照，可是我不是一个人在活着，不能在那么自私和任性，在认命和拼搏之间我选择“认命”麻木代替了一切。是什么意思？

Front seems to be no end of the tunnel of darkness will never come to an end, so only fumbled stumbled to move on, do not know where the destination! Has also been struggling, fantasy under the blue sky and white clouds in sunlight at any time, but I'm not a person alive, and cannot be so selfish and willful, fate, and I choose between strive "fatalistic" numbness instead of everything.