求翻译：我也知道这次和她在一起，我之前的关系很乱，没有理清楚。让她觉得我很花了现在。。我不是个拿不起放不下的人。我想把所有的事处理好了，不要让她感到一点不高兴。也许是我处理的方式太慢了，给她产生了一种欺骗的错误感觉。我真的没欺骗她。。真的。。是什么意思？

I know this with her, relationship before I very chaotic, does not clarify. Make her feel like I am spending now.. I am not a fit person. I would like to deal with all things, not to make her feel a little unhappy. Maybe it's the way I handle is too slow, gave her the error of a delusion. I really did not deceive her.. Really ...