求翻译：我有点醉了，今天是我这几年来喝的最苦的一次酒，心理在哭，在流血。。为什么我还要强颜欢笑的去陪他们说笑。为什么。。。我不想。 可是我是个男人，男人就是累。。 我很想问他们 ，朋友你们累吗？ 想买醉吗？ 我没问，我不想问。因为我怕我问了他们会问我 为什么不高兴。我不想说出我和她分手了。她一直都会活在我心理，在我心理永远没有和她分手的那天。。我爱你莲。是什么意思？

I'm a little drunk, today is the worst time I the past few years to drink wine, crying, bleeding ... Why do I have to smile to accompany them to tell jokes. Why ... I don't want to. But I am a man, a man is tired.. I'd ask them, do you tired friend? Do you want to buy drunk? I didn't ask, I don't want to ask. I asked because I was afraid they would ask me why I was unhappy. I don't want to say I broke up with her. She has been living in my mental, in the day that I will never break up with her.. I love you-Lian.