求翻译：这是一个饱经沧桑的傻子发出的声音， 他其实更愿作个柔弱而孩子气的诉苦人。……我已经好多年都不能从听音乐、写音乐及读和写中感觉到激愤了。对这些事我感到一种难以形诸文字的负罪感……事实上我无法欺骗你们，无法欺骗你们中的任何一人……我能想起的最大罪恶即是欺骗人们，装模作样……我必须轻度麻木才能够重获我在孩提时代曾有过的热情……在我们所有人中都有善意，我就是太爱人们了。爱的太多以至于让我感到真的太他妈忧郁，一个略微忧郁的、敏感的、不领情的、双鱼座的耶稣式人物！你干嘛不心安理得享受它？我不知道。……我已经没有任何激情了……与其苟延残喘，不如从容燃烧。……”是什么意思？

This is a fool who had a sound of, he would prefer to make a weak and childish complaints of people. …… I had for years were not from listening to music, write and read and write music to feel indignant. These things I feel guilt for a difficult-some text sth In fact I cannot deceive you cannot deceive you in any one of sth I think the greatest sin is to trick people, putting on sth I have to mild numbness to regain my childhood have enough enthusiasm for sth In all of us, there is good faith, I just love people too much. Too much love that makes me feel too fucking sad really, one slightly melancholy, sensitive, ungrateful, PISCES-Jesus people! Why do you not feel comfortable to enjoy it? I do not know. …… I don't have any passion for sth Instead of dying than calmly combustion. ……”