求翻译：宁愿心痛宁愿泪流，我也绝不会去承认这件事，我只想离得越远越好。接下来的日子我真的不知道该如何面对，如何伪装咯，因为我真的累咯，但是仍然放不下。接下来的路我真的不知道往哪儿走咯。是什么意思？

Prefer heartache would rather cry, I will not to acknowledge this matter, I just want to get farther and farther, the better. Next day I really don't know how to face, how disguised slightly, because I'm really tired slightly, but still doesn't fit. Then the way I really don't know where to go slightly.