求翻译：从一开始我就把心给了你，我的背叛，哪怕就一次，就够我心死的，恨自己没有胜过罪，恨自己罪的本性，所以我选择拿起刀剑，死就死吧，你已经放下了，我也不该奢求你怎么样，心中却希望你还愿意接受我，写完了，我也放下了。是什么意思？

From a began I on to heart to has you, I of betrayed, even on once, on enough I heart died of, hate own no than crime, hate own crime of nature, so I select took up knife sword, died on died 's, you has down has, I also shouldn't luxury you how, heart but hope you also willing to accept I, wrote finished, I also down has.