求翻译：我的母亲离开我已三年，我相信我出口那个阴影，然而在宁静的夜晚，我不能不感觉，一些悲伤直到现在不宁静。是什么意思？

Mymother left me for three years, I believe that I export the shadow, however, in the quiet night, I cannot help but feel, some sad not quiet until now.