求翻译：这些天来的煎熬将我磨得斑驳了，几次精心策划的逃亡都以失败告终。希望如果再次落空，也许我的忍耐力就该被透支得干干净净了。我一秒一秒地数着时间，直到第七天。现在我只能将头埋在膝盖间，等待着上帝的旨意。我怎么样都没想到，自己可以在这种地方待上那么长时间，不知这些天是怎么样熬过来的，也不知道这种坚强到底从何而来。或许，也只有这种困境，才能让大不了的小孩放下身段，去学会自己长大吧。是什么意思？

These days of torment I have worn mottled, crafted to flee on several occasions have ended in failure. Hope that if you fail again, maybe my patience on the overdraft was very clean. I a number of seconds a second time, until the seventh day. Now I can only head between the knees, waiting for God's will. How about I did not think they can stay in this place for so long, I do not know these days is how to get through it, nor does it know what such a strong come from. Perhaps only this dilemma, to let kids down gestures that can not be, to learn to grow up.