求翻译：这一刻，我突然觉得，我欠下了那么多的债，不求偿还的债。差一点眼泪就不争气地流了出来，我看了看远方，喉咙抽搐了一下。怕他们看见，我假装咳了几声。眼睛锁定了楼旁的那架摩天轮，我想，如果上到楼顶，跳到摩天轮上就行了。我紧紧地盯住摩天轮，生怕它一会儿就会自动消失。我数了数，摩天轮上有十七个座位，只要跳上一个座位就可以逃出去了。想着，现在就恨不得从这里跳下去。可一切都在计划之中，不能乱来的。是什么意思？

This moment, I suddenly feel that I owe so much debt, does not seek to repay debts. Nearly tears flow out without disappointing, I looked into the distance, throat twitch a bit. Afraid they saw, I pretended to cough up a few. Eyes locked the floor next to the Ferris wheel, I think, if top to roof, jumped onto a Ferris wheel on the line. I tightly pegged to the Ferris wheel, lest it automatically disappear for a while. I counted the number 17 on the Ferris wheel seats, just jump on a seat can escape. Thought, wanted to jump from here now. Everything was planned, not recklessly.