求翻译：总觉得是他对不起我，想想，还是我给了他机会让他对不起我，不怪他，怪自己太不仔细，留了缝隙让他伤害了我，看淡了，看轻了，是什么意思？

Always felt he was not up me, think, or shall I gave him the opportunity to let him down on me, do not blame him, not blame yourself too carefully, leave a gap for he hurt me, underweight, belittle,