求翻译：这是我一直没有告诉你的.我不敢说.我怕知道答案后会难过.之后我们总是因为她而闹矛盾.你答应我会处理好你们的事.我也答应给你时间.直到如今.你没有把握.给不了我安全感.我们几乎天天都闹矛盾.我真的真的想放弃.后来我父母知道我们谈朋友.我也准备告诉爸妈时.是什么意思？

This is I has been no told you of. I can't said. I fear know answers Hou will sad. zhihou we always because she and downtown contradictions. you promised I will processing good you of thing. I also promised to you time. until now. you no grasp. to can't I sense. we almost every day are downtown contradictions. I really of really of wanted to abandoned. later I parents know we on friends. I also prepared told dad mom Shi.