求翻译：我先整理思路，然后深呼吸以便保持冷静，虽然我没有得到名次，但我被授予一个特别勇气奖。这让我一时难以相信。这一天难道不值得庆祝吗？是什么意思？

I collate ideas and deep breathing to keep cool, although I have no ranking, but I was granted a special award for courage. It seems to me difficult to believe for a moment. This day does not celebrate it?