求翻译：在别人看来，我总爱笑，说我笑的真彪，真傻。我知道，我是很傻，但这也是我伪装的一种工具罢了。明明不想笑、明明很伤心、明明不舍得……想哭，又不能哭，只能靠这种方式了吧、、、为什么没人理解我呢~~都说我怎样不好、是什么意思？

In the eyes of others, I love to laugh, I laugh really Biao said, fool. I know I was silly, but this is my disguise of a tool. Obviously don't want to laugh, obviously very sad, not willing to sth Want to cry, nor crying, can only rely on the bar,, in this way, why is no one understood me ~~ say how bad I,